Guess My Feelings

Wednesday, February 25, 2026 at seventh day of Ramadan

This is my story. Do you want to read?

I don't know this Ramadan will be my worst Ramadan or my most blessed Ramadan. 

I caught my husband cheating on me on the fourth day of Ramadan.

This is not the first time he has cheating on me. About 2 years ago, he did. I let it slide and forgave him since I'm not ready enough to separate from him. 

I thought my husband had changed and will never do it again, but I'm wrong. I'm too naive to just believe him.

People won't change as easily.

Can you guess my feelings when I found out he was cheating on me for the second time? I'm trembling and shocked. I couldn't cry back then, my tears wouldn't come out.

But the next day, I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. I always cry suddenly every time I remember what he has done to me.

I asked myself so much so questions, "what are my faults?" "Am I not good enough to be his wife?" "Was this my punishment for all my sins?" 

But, I couldn't find the answer to those questions.

Can you help me find the answers to those questions? 

This time, I won't let it slide. I'm sure I can live separated from him. I asked him to find a place near my son's school where I can live with them. I can't live with him under one roof anymore. 

Am I selfish if I separate my sons from their father? But, I'm too disappointed. My heart breaks into pieces. It's hurtful. 

There's one of the most painful things from this affair. He bought a smartwatch for his mistress as same as my watch both colour and brand.

I bought that smartwatch by myself, and my husband bought it for someone else.

Once more, can you guess how I feel? 

I don't want to always remember this most painful thing, so I decided to sell my smartwatch at a low price. 

I've wanted this smartwatch for a long time, and I  just bought it a year ago. I sold my smartwatch just to lose my trauma.

Since I can barely afford my son's and my expenses, I'm still depending on his money. I've saved the proof that proves his affair, and I will use the blackmail card by telling to his co-workers so that he would be embarrassed and quit his job if he runs away from responsibility towards his sons.

I did right. Didn't I? 

Neither my parents or his parents know about this affair. I'm still keeping this problem just the two of us. I don't dare to let them know that we stay apart.

I will bring this up one day when the time comes.